Festivus for the rest of us

I'll admit that I'm not really in the Xmas spirit. Yes, I'm sure I'll be full of joy and happiness and warmth on the days around Xmas, but I'm not really feelin' it this year. We're surviving at least. In the black, but not enough to be comfortable.

The blue is coming. The wave was set in motion and I can feel the first ripples lapping at the shore. If I can keep busy enough, maybe I won't notice and the tide will die down.

I'm talking and acting out in my sleep again. Of course, I'm not talking the meds and haven't for almost a year. Haven't seen the doctor since March. I don't want to take medication everyday for the rest of my life just so I don't act out my dreams at night. Perhaps, the acting out is all psychological. Maybe the depression has something to do with it.

God, this was gloomy. Time to smile.

Liz Phair makes me smile.

This hair cut and godchildren make me smile, too.

Jesus on the Radio

I was listening to the Morning Show on Sportsradio 610 here and the discussion somehow turned to who would you want to play poker with. One of the guys said there's always someone who says they'd choose Jesus. Various hilarities ensued, including discussion on is bluffing Jesus a sin. Then, someone said, "Well, how about Judas?"

I have the feeling this post will be a little controversial. There's your disclaimer.

How about Judas? Often thought of as an bad man. But, isn't his crime only doing what he thought was the right thing to do? He turned one of his best friends in to the cops because he thought it was the right thing to do. Furthermore, if he didn't do what he thought was right, where would Christianity be today? How many of us would be willing to sacrifice a close friend because we thought it was ultimately the right thing to do? Besides, Jesus wanted him to do it, right? I mean, JC knew that he had to "die for our sins." Someone had to "betray" him. But, if JC had committed himself to that path, is it really a betrayal when Judas was just doing what Jesus wanted him to do?

Next to Jesus commiting himself to "dying for us," didn't Judas commit the (second) most ultimate act of altruism? The man was so heartbroken with himself for betraying his friend that he commited suicide. Could you handle that guilt? I don't know if I would be able to turn in my best friend for any crime they may have committed.

Just something to think about.

Annoying Habits of other people

5 things other people do that annoy the piss out of me:

1) Butting into a private conversation.
2) Sitting behind me reading what I type over my shoulder as if it had ANYTHING to do with them.
3) Checking on me and my work, as if they were my supervisor.
4) Kiss so much ass that only the Ass respects you.
5) Eavesdropping on private conversations at work while pretending to looking busy, like being on the phone.

Oh, what a coincidence. The guy sitting behind me does all of that. No wonder the nicknames he's picked up are cruel...

Update

Yes, I'm alive. I don't really have anything to say. But, I am alive and things are... okay. Just very busy with work and extracurricular activities. Haven't had time for introspection, or maybe I have and don't like what I see. I still have my sense of humor. I was telling a friend of mine that Life is full of irony and you have to laugh at it or it will get you.

Good News: I'm number one in both my fantasy leagues. Kicking major ass and taking names. Go Texans and Panthers! I've all but given up on the Saints, at least for this year. What's really scaring me is that I'm really behind the Cowboys continued sucess. I'm gonna regret admiting that one day...

Good News 2: The new Barenaked Ladies' CD, Everything To Everyone, is their best album yet. Fuck you if you don't belee dat, playa!

Good News 3: I'm going to be a godfather... again... for a third time. My sister and her husband have asked me to be godfather to their newborn, Carly Renee. I'll be flying to Orlando for the baptism at the end of the month and meeting my newest godchild for the first time.

Here's something strange to think about... How does a non-Christian end up being asked by 3 families to be a godfather? My answer (without trying to brag), they all know that I am a good role model and quite capable of answering questions of Theology when their brood start asking questions about God and such.

Until ... another day...

Decisions, Decisions

It's been a little while, hasn't it. I'm sorry about that. But, I'm quite indecisive right now. Everyday, I think I'm gonna pack up this place. I don't have a lot of time to give to this. And I don't have a lot of emotion to put behind it right now. You deserve more than I can give to this blog right now. Despite all of that, something is keeping me from saying goodbye. So, maybe the best decision I can make at this point is to say I'll post when I feel like it. I can promise I won't be posting often and that's the only promise I can make right now. I feel like I need to get alot of things straightened out. Thank you for your time and understanding. Keep in touch.

Good News: Someone is giving me a computer for my house so I can edit for them. They said I'm a "Bad mutha fucka," and meant that in a good way.