When you get depressed, really deep down blue, you start to doubt just about everything. And I do mean everything. You doubt your self-worth, your life, your choices, your relationships. You distance yourself from family and friends so not to bother them with your troubles, even though deep down you hope they notice and do something about it. The beauty of severe mood swings is that it doesn't take much to swing towards the positive.

I'd been feeling pretty down on life lately. Lots of doubts which I don't care to talk about because they don't really matter. The important thing is that I'm on a positive swing all because of Goldie Hawn. You see, I was given "Wildcats" on DVD by my wife for Father's Day. Yeah, it's a comedy and has some great laughs. Bonus points for the football. An extra point or two for noticing a bad edit where you see Wesley Snipes in all his maniless for a few frames. But, the movie itself didn't cause the good swing. No, it was the thought that this was the first movie my wife and I shared together over 10 years ago.

When you get depressed, really down down blue, you notice little things. You notice you hit the snooze a little more. You notice less eye contact with people. You notice a bad edit in a movie where you see Wesley Snipes's and his third leg for a few frames. The beauty of severe mood swings is that just a little thought or memory can bring you back to the positive.

Going out of town for a few days. The Mission: Make Liz Phair fall in love with me. Considering it's highly unlikely the mission will be successful, I'll have to console my heart and loins with seeing her live in concert in Austin.

Here's one of my favorite Liz Phair songs. It's the first one on her Whip-smart album.

Chopsticks

I met him at a party and he told me how to drive him home.
He said he liked to do it backwards. I said that's just fine with me.
That way we can fuck and watch TV.

It was four a.m. and the light was gray like it always is in paperbacks.
He asked if I liked playing jacks. I told him that I was good to sixes,
But all hell broke loose after that.

I told him that I knew Julia Roberts when I was twelve at summer camp.
We didn't say anything after that. I dropped him off and I drove on home
'Cause secretly, I'm timid.

I don't mind the "Tamyra" search hits so much, not even the "hot lesbian action" hits... But "catfights in 7th grade"... Dude, that's just friggin' nasty! Though, I never would have stumbled upon this post at Spoonfeeding, so maybe thanks are in order...

Sugar-free Jello IS NOT a suitable substitution to satisfy your chocolate cravings...

Today was a horrible day until God allowed me to see that glorious sunset. It is an honor to know that I was one of the priveledged few to view that serene scene. Hues of pink, orange, blue, white, and omnious grey all combined in the sky's palette to create a brillant moment. The beauty may have lasted only 15 minutes, yet I feel calmier, clearer and more at peace for having that time. Suddenly, the day wasn't about the hassles and the fights. Suddenly, the day was simply wonderful.