Friday, May 26, 2006

Updates in Haiku

Sorry for no posts
but packing and moving will
keep a man busy.

Cinderella has
started and I was suckered
in for lack of men.

Old owner of house
didn't clean before he left.
Dog hair everywhere.

The smell of wet dog
has been steam cleaned out; replaced
by smell of wet paint.

I will miss all my
Indiana Auditions
Dot Com chatter peeps.

Root canal, no pain.
Novocaine worn off and ouch.
Spare some vicodin?

for more involvment backstage.
Me run theatre?

I don't know when I'll
update again; Computer
needs to get moved to.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

It's Over

In the words of my man Roy Orbison, "It's over, it's over. It's OOOOOOooooVer!" The show that is. And, as much as I enjoy "Into The Woods," I'm a billion times happy this experience is over. I'll miss a bunch of the folks. I thanked most of the ones I needed to for always making me feel welcome. I missed a few people 'cause I couldn't find them at a good time to tell them. There are a handful I would love to work with again, a few I hope to keep in touch with on at least a semi-regular basis.

But, overall, this was not a great experience for me. The show was great, don't get me wrong. I'm happy to have been apart of the stage show. But, man, acting is a hobby for me, not a career or anything. So, I'm at the point in my life where I think I'd rather be involved with a mediocre show with good people who appreciate all the little things and "little people" than the greatest show with all kinds of issues and problems backstage. I usually crash for a few days, sad the show is over. But, I don't think that'll be the case this time.

Maybe it's my personality, but I had trouble feeling like I fit in this crowd. A lot of the time I felt kind of invisible. There were a few people who I always felt welcomed by and enjoyed thier company. One lady in particular I had a great conversations with, but in the end, I think I saw how invisible I was. At least, that's how I felt.

Thank you to all the folks who always made me feel welcome and made this experience as great as it could have been. I'll miss seeing your faces and I hope we'll work together again in some capacity.

Holy crap, we had 126 people audition for Cinderella. Call backs are later tonight. We probably could use more men, but that's pretty much been standard. Oh, did I not mention I'm assistant producing this show for CCP? Guess that long needed break isn't happening yet.

And at some point, we have to move. Yes, that's right. We got the house all nice and closed on. But that's a story for another time.

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Coincidence? I think not.

Still in pain. Root canal scheduled for May 22nd. Hopefully, the antibiotics will get rid of any infections before I run out of vicodin. I really don’t want to call the dentist for a refill on that. Being loopy for more than two weeks is not a good thing.

I was talking online last night to my friend from high school who recently got back in touch with me. He was telling me that his now-ex-wife keeps wanting to have sex with him when he’s around. Apparently, she was the one who broke off the marriage (for a 19 year old boy). He said that he felt guilty about having sex with her again. It’s my understanding that it’s a cycle. He visits, she wants him, he gives in.

He told me that the day he contacted me he prayed to God for guidance in this situation. Once he got in touch with me, I, too, prayed to God wondering why all of a sudden was he getting back in touch with me. I figured that God had some reason for reconnecting us at this time.

A few weeks ago, I was reading the Book of Ecclesiastes and this one verse popped out to me. It was Ecclesiastes 7:26:
”I find more bitter than death the woman who is a snare, who heart is a trap, and whose hands are chains. The man who pleases God will escape her, but the sinner she will ensnare."
I don’t know why that verse popped out, but I underlined it so I could easily find it again.

When he told me about the problems with his ex, I asked him if I could quote the Bible. Being a believer, he had no problem with that. So, I typed that verse for him to read and think about. It seemed to fit his situation and the problem he was struggling with. He really appreciated that verse and thought it was just what he needed to hear. I told him that God talks to us all the time, but we don’t always hear him.

I truly hope he is able to deal with this situation. Despite, well, getting some, he didn’t seem right or comfortable with the choice to continue sexual relations with his ex. Hopefully now, he will be able to make better choices for himself and his family.

It sure seems like coincidence how this all played out. He happened to pray for guidance on the same day he talked to me. I happened to read a Bible verse that struck me something funny. We happened to be online at the same time for the first time since he contacted me. I saw a sign outside of a church recently that sums it up: Coincidence is God speaking to you anonymously. How true.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006


It isn't enough that we still don't know exactly when we're closing on the house. Maybe this Friday; Maybe next Tuesday. It isn't enough that the show finally opened. Two weekends to go. It isn't enough that the wife is still costuming a show. It opens this weekend with other shows throughout the year. It isn't enough that despite having free time I still haven't gotten to bed before midnight. I honestly don't know what's happening there. It isn't enough that I'm starting to freak out about the money on being there for closing. It is; I'm just freaking out about it. No, it isn't enough I've got all this going on...

Now, this is the week my frickin' teeth decide to start hurting. The last two nights, I haven't been able to sleep the pain was so bad. This is despite 1000g of acetaminophen, 600g of ibprophen and a vicodin left over from the gout episode. Oh, let's not forget the oragel that numbs your mouth.

I'll be seeing the dentist about it today. This is probably stemming from a chipped molar that I've taken too long to deal with. The dentist told me then I needed a root canal and a crown to take care of it. With insurance, that would be around $500 of money I don't have. The pain went away, but it's come back with a vengeance this week.

I'm worried that I might need two root canals. The price is going to hurt me more than the procedure. And the timing just sucks. Ow Ow OW OW OW OW OW OW OW ow ow ow.

Sorry, it's throbbing right now. The pain comes and goes. When it's here, it's horrible. I want to cry but fear the act of crying will hurt more. When it's not here, it still vaguely hurts. Ow Ow Ow OW OWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWowowowow. Not like right now. About three or four times an hour I'm in agony.

I pray for strong pain medication and antibiotics. Not doubt there's some kind of infection. And dammit, I'm still doing the show no matter that happens at the dentists!