Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Pity Party

I'm having a pity party and you are invited. Please attend.

You know, I don't know if I'm getting tired of blogging or I just feel like I'm talking to myself or what. Some days, I feel like what's the point of keeping my thoughts out there. Other days, I remind myself why. Other days, that reason isn't enough.

Today, I am wondering if anyone would notice if I never posted here again. But, I think that's me just having a pity party. There's important work to be done here, right?

Why do I blog? I'm not a political ranter, though I do enjoy discussing political ideas. I don't wax poetic on the news of the day. And I really don't want this to be a blog that talks about every stupid detail of my day. Please do me a favor and shoot me if I am doing that.

So, what's the blog for? At this point, I honestly just hope that my thoughts on God, Jesus, faith, etc... well, i can only hope that it makes a difference to some one at their time of need.

I imagine some lost soul googling something and tripping they way to my blog only to read a post like this or this. And, that somehow that person's life is changed for the better - like showing my faith made a difference.

In fact, that's something I pray for. I ask God to give me the opportunity to show one person the next day what His love and mercy is. I don't mean I want the chance to browbeat a non-believer into believing. But, I do want to show that person God's kindness and maybe loosen a brick from the wall that's keeping them from God.

But, then I look at the archive list and see on average I've posted less than three times in the past eight months. Obviously, something ain't right. I'm not sure what it is. Is it me being lazy? Have I run out of things to say? Is it me seeing stats that say maybe 4 people visit this place a day (and I'm not 100% sure that it's not just me visiting)? Is my message turning people away? Am I *gasp* boring? You tell me.

In a previous post, I wrote:
"Ecclesiastes 12:10 says, “The Teacher searched to find just the right words, and what he wrote was upright and true.” When it comes to blogging, I can think of no better level to aspire to. When it comes to writing about Christ and God’s truth, I relentlessly pray God will help me find the right words and that they will be interpreted as true. That’s all I hope for this blog to be."
I'm still down with that idea. I just don't seem to be following through. You tell me, am I?


Edward said...

You cannot, cannot do something like this for anyone else. There are too many voices out there, too many people trying to do the same thing (i.e. a personal journal), that conditioning your enjoyment of it on your comment count is a recipe for misery.

We all fantasize about someone stumbling upon our words and sparking something within them, whether your purpose is evangelical or something else. Odds of that are pretty astronomical, though; when you're just talking about yourself and your thoughts, people that don't know you just won't be that interested, since they're too busy with themselves and their own thoughts. You should be doing this, IMO, for yourself and for your family and friends who are techie enough to check it now and again. And more often than not? They're not gonna comment. Trust me, I know.

Anonymous said...


Hey this is Julie, your favorite Realtor :). I read your blog when I can and it does inspire me. I am now going to church more consistently than I use to, pray every night, and well, you put things into a different light. I'm able to relate to you and your experiences and apply it to my situations and take as much of it as you will, you do touch my heart and make a difference in my life.